Tuesday, February 15, 2011

299. NOW WHAT?

“Your license expires in 14 days,” the TSA agent says when he hands back my ticket and Minnesota State issued identification. There was a moment a few months ago when I thought about getting a New York license. Then reality set in. Why would I spend 4 hours standing in line or on line, like they say in New York, at the DMV so I can drive in a state where I have no car? Especially when my old license works just fine for rental companies. “Thanks,” I reply and proceed through security.

Because I’m an anxious traveler, I always arrive early, today being no exception. I have over hour before my flight leaves. I’m in no mood to read and the better idea sounds like me lugging all my stuff into an airport bar for $12 glasses of house white wine. I plop down at the bar, place my order and grab my phone. I. DON’T. EVEN. BELIEVE. THIS. Yesterday, somehow in my travel re-booking I missed this: TEXT FROM TOWN AND COUNTRY: You back? I distinctly remember telling him that I would be gone for two weeks, so of course I am back.

What also irritates me is how he knows when I have purged him from my system, when I have decided to move on, when I have decided to make a go of with Dr. Froggy. This is when he decides to return? This time though I feel that I have 5,000 years of Hinduism and Durga’s wisdom on my side. I remember that the pandit told me that this was not a good match. Which I mean, I am college educated, and at some level I must have KNOWN Town and Country was not a good match. But maybe I needed that divine intervention to liberate me from my worldly, lustful, stupid self.

I take a few slow sips of my wine and wonder if he is wondering why I have not written back to him in over a day. Or maybe he doesn’t care. Or maybe it really is like what Siobhan said. That I am not special to him and that he probably has several women in his life like me. My phone alerts me to a text and I slide it over and flip it open.

TEXT FROM TOWN AND COUNTRY: You okay? Haven’t heard back.

Now what?

10 comments:

Millyx x said...

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh
aaaaaaaah
(some) men are so frustrating!

Leave him hanging!

Millyx x

Adventurous Ammena said...

either ignore and press delete or text back something along the lines of 'all peachy, moving on with life and working towards a goal with a man in my life' of just tell him to stop contacting you

Sunny said...

You have to read and respond and let him communicate with you.. you are strong enough to handle it.

If you don't, you'll always feel like KT Tunstall singing "black horse and a cherry tree and the big void in your heart that refuses to go away".

Three said...

Booo... I say leave him hanging. You've been too available, you can respond after another one or two texts :-)

nk said...

Been there..took a wrong step..stupid heart..always wins over head. I hope you didn't make the same mistake. Anxious to see what you did..

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear Milly -

I know. So frustrating.

But what I don't understand is - I finally get my life back from thinking and hoping on him and that is when he returns.

What kind of sick destiny, karma, kismet is that?

xo,
Desi Girl

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear Adventurous Ammena -

What I need to do is flat out in a text tell him to leave me alone. Deleting and ignoring does not work. I think this will take me drawing a line in the sand asking him never to approach said line. This is what I need to do.

Have I done it? No. Will I? I don't know.

xo,
Desi Girl

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear Sunny -

Maybe strong, but a little overly romantic, watching one too many Bollywood flicks with the Big B - like Naseeb!

But seriously, Durga, grant me strength!

xo,
Ms. 101

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear Three -

Leave him hanging - shd have, kinda did on accident.

More soon and boo is right!

xo,
Desi Girl

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear NK -

You too ??? heart over head, so glad I am not the only one.

Oh keep reading - you'll see what I did :)

Did you stop? If so, tell me how!

xo,
Desi Girl