Wednesday, February 16, 2011

300. YES I AM, WHY?

I sit at the bar for a while, two glasses of cheap white wine a while to be exact. During this time I begin my usual Town and Country ponderings. Why has he contacted me? Well he is a man, and this is Manhattan – so booty call comes to mind. Then another part wonders, maybe he wanted to make sure I returned from India. And if he really does have a “rotation” like Siobhan insists, then this is my turn in the queue.
Then the part of me that is a Hindu fatalist kicks in. This part of me believes that things are not left to chance, but destiny. This part says fighting and controlling something that cannot be controlled like life and this pesky of heart of mine is futile. This part of me says, there is a deeper, bigger, universal reason Town and Country keeps coming back, kismet. He’s your Mr. Big and you are brown girl Carrie. This part of me insists he’s interested in me. This part of me says, this is New York --- if he didn’t want the girl and just the sex, he can get that anywhere in New York. Instead he seeks me. This part of me says Town and Country is THE ONE.
I check my watch, collect my things and head to the gate. As I walk, I think, if Town and Country was my destiny --- then what and why is it taking him so long to join the matrimonial program already? And why does he engage in this mentally frustrating, emotionally destructive cloak and dagger thing with me. I want you, I change my mind I don’t want, wait wait now I want you, never mind I ignore you. And, since we’re on the topic of Town and Country, why does he get to call the shots? Because he’s the man? Is this why none of his relationships work out? He’s difficult and offers nothing.
And every date we ever had was convenient for him. Near his house or work. It is like he never leaves his side of the island! Whereas I am traveling everywhere. But is he really what I want? Sometimes I think the physical chemistry has temporarily blinded me to reason. Because at the end of the day, I still am pretty hard core. I am in it to win it, so in what alternate dimension of reality would I be okay with this little scrap of crap relationship he is offering?
I board the plane and stow my stuff. I sit in my seat and flip open the phone.
TEXT TO TOWN AND COUNTRY: Yes, I am back. Why?


Adventurous Ammena said...

nice reply :) and what was his response???

The Mom said...

Thank God tomorrow is Friday - that means we won't have to wait the weekend to find out what T&C replied back...! :-)

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear Adventurous Ammena -

Reply is posted :)hope you like it and forgive me for being human!

Desi Girl

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear The Mom -

Ha ha ha ... Love that quote, glad I dont have to wait all weekend!

Thanks for validating Desi Girl's writing, too! A couple of other folks have said "stop with the cliff hangers" so I try and wrap a thread by Thursday!

Desi Girl

My Courageous Life said...

Stop with the cliffhangers? Clearly these people don't watch General Hospital on Fridays then. By the way, I heard that Brenda and Sonny are getting married today and that despite whatever scheming and secrets there are they will actually make it down the aisle this time.

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear My Courageous Life -

Ha! General Hospital - I am SOOO behind in watching. I was getting annoyed with how sloooowly the Balkan story was going - and it is Jerry Jax I may go postal - why doesn he die!

Cliff hangers .... yes they are part of the way DG rolls!

Desi Girl