I think there is an All Things Desi Manual that is sent to desi boys and desi girls before they are born. Some sort of cheat sheet that outlines how to be a desi including the appropriate career choices. How else did the vast majority of my ABCD desi peers become doctors of some sort? Or else they became engineers, some of whom became bankers and financiers. Clearly – I the architecture major did not receive, review or read the manual.
In fact when I was an undergrad, and I would sit with my desi friends in the “canteen” and a non-desi would come join us. Eventually the non-desi would figure out I was an architecture, not a bio, major and say something like, “Oh you’re not Indian?” Hhhmm – okay then …
And while I found architecture interesting and cool, I was not very good at it, but it was too late and (too expensive) to change majors – plus I didn’t know what else to do. Being averse to math and the sight of blood pretty much ruled the majors of science and engineering, etc. So I ended up on the marketing side of architecture - working in a family business. Sure, I may work hard and do a thorough job – I don’t feel satisfied and it leaves me feeling like I failed myself.
This is why I am so excited to work with Life Coach – to reset the clock. So the fact that is taking FOREVER to get my online payment to go through is very frustrating. I have received three cyber error messages from the Google payment server. Mean computer!
This bothers me for two reasons. One, I have wasted 30 minutes, but two, it is generally NOT a good sign to begin working with someone and NOT be able to pay them. Because I want to punch the computer, I step away and go into the kitchen for a Diet Coke aka Diva Cola. I come back to the computer and still don’t have a confirmation of payment from Life Coach’s automated payment system.
I am forced to write to Life Coach and ask her if I can send her a check. Maybe Life Coach’s first assignment can be to find someone to teach Desi Girl computer and internet sleuthing skills. Ugh. I just want to be happy, have a career that excites me and a man who loves me. Am I really asking for that much?