Monday, July 16, 2012

558. THE LONE WARLORD OF MY HEART

It’s never a good sign when your friends ask, what’s new, and you (in this case me) don’t tell them that a guy they don’t like (Town and Country) has returned. But it’s true. For now, I have decided against telling Tate, Ainsley or Siobhan that Town and Country strikes back, or that I have fallen back into the routine of late night texting with him.

Town and Country: How was your day?
Desi Girl: Okay. (Now, I know that this guy has managed to blow up my life on more occasions than I wish to count, but when we’re catching up at the end of the day, it seems TOTALLY normal to do “this” whatever “this” is with him. But, since I know he is the Lone Warlord of my Heart, I remind myself to be careful, to tread with caution, do not engage emotionally. Why I don’t ask, ‘Desi Girl, why do you keep doing this?’ is beyond me …)
Town and Country: Just okay?
Desi Girl: Yes. I am worried about my boss.
Town and Country: Why?
Desi Girl: I just am.
Town and Country: But that’s you. You’re different. Unique. Sweet.

Ack. I don’t like it when he says nice things to me about me. It gives me false hope.

Town and Country: what are you wearing?
Desi Girl: (Really? We are going from my boss to sex? Please.) I don’t feel like doing this.

Several seconds elapse. I know he is annoyed that I don’t want to sext with him. But I promised myself, this time, there were would be no-more-than-friends-nonsense. This is how I always get in trouble with him.

Desi Girl: You there? If we’re doing this, we’re doing this as friends and I don’t tell my friends what I am wearing late at night.
Town and Country: Ok.

Oh what? He’s mad? He jerks me around ALL the time. He should be THANKFUL that I even forgave him. Why, I still don’t know. I cannot blame it on being weak and lonely. There is something just magnetic about him to me. It’s like I cannot stop myself with him. God help me …

10 comments:

Hebah said...

God help you.

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear Hebah -

I know.

On one hand, I really was fine with being friends. He is not the first man I have had romantic feelings for. I am friends with my Ex and some ex-crushes.

He complicates things, too.It doesn't help that I am where I am at in life too. But onward and upward.

xo,
DG

Pushpa said...

I ve been following your blog from quite sometime and i really like you writing style.

I ve read all your posts, however i feel i ve missed out on an important post. Cos I dont remember reading that T&C abusing on text.

Anyways I am not happy that THE JERK is back, but very happy that u are back to posting regularly yaaaaaaaaaay :)

Hebah said...

Dear DG,

Good luck with everything. Who knows maybe you two are meant to be together.

I personally could never be friends with an ex.

Hebah said...

I personally could never be friends with an ex.

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear Pushpa -

So good to hear from you! And yes I am glad to be back, putting the blog back into check!

LOL - jerk - he seems to have the impression on many!

Let me find you the posts where I blogged abt the stupid fight about the Ombama hat .... OMG ... so childish! :) tee hee ... oh well that is life!

xo,
DG

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear Hebah,

It is not easy at all to be friends with an Ex. My college sweetie and I took years and years to be friends again, I mean a decade. And the break-up was painful and something inside of me changed, no doubt, cause he is the one I thought I would marry.

But it took time and life and stuff - and we connected totally randomly - and I have forgive him, I dont forget, but I forgive.

xo,
DG

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear Pushpa -

In regard to the stupid Obama hat fight - go to post 513-520. :) the highlight or lowlight :)

xo
DG

Pushpa said...

DG, Thanks for the reply.

101 Bad Desi Dates said...

Dear Pushpa,

Any time!

xo,
DG